Dream 20: Bhavānī's voice

In reality, I was discussing some Tantra and stuff with my friends last night. I told them how the Devi Bhagvat differs from the commonly known interpretation of Śivalinga as a phallus with Pārvatī's vulva. The Devi Bhagvat narrates the Linga as the egg shaped cosmos, while some books like Rudrayamalam suggest it to be the primordial energy egg from which the universe expanded (hint: Big Bang).

Now, let's move on to the dream part. Just the same night, I saw a black dark area, from which a voice was emanating. The voice was in English (unlike some previous dreams where it would be Sanskrit). The voice seemed confident and aware of what it was talking about. Yet the voice was soft and tender (like that of a teacher). The voice was of a woman, and most likely Goddess. The voice said, ‘‘It is really impossible to tell whether Bhavānī's energy is present in vulva or not. But that should not really concern you.’’

I woke up suddenly, but luckily I remembered the dialogue this time. Its interpretation is not completely clear to me, as of now.

Dream 19: Mother Kīrti

I had this confusing dream a few days ago. Either a narration was being done by my father about a version of Rāmāyana (not the Valmiki one). Or otherwise, I was just roaming in ancient times, witnessing various characters.

At some point in time, I reached a strange temple with beautiful white stairs. While ascending, I found an emanating fire coming out from the mouth of Goddess. The Goddess was called as Kīrti there. The fire was about ten meters long. My luck was not good enough to see Her face.

Dream 16: Idol of Kālī

I saw the idol of Mother Kālī in a dream. She was made of black stone and lying in front of my eyes. She had a crown and Her features were somewhat hard to recognize. She had a silken-yellow background (aura?) behind the idol.

The dream was short in length.

Dream 15: The invisible Tārā

A few weeks ago, I saw a dialogue with Goddess Tārā in my dreams. I didn't remember either Her appearance or Her voice in the morning. But I do remember that the room of discussion was completely dark (perhaps that's why She was not visible).

Goddess Tārā is the second in the Daśamahāvidyā devī studied in the Tantra literature.

Dream 14: Angry Sarasvatī

I saw this dream around the 2007 new year. I was seriously ill and after some tolerance, I was completely annoyed. I started meditating on Sarasvatī and slept; my intuition said that She was angry.

I saw a dream of Her around 2:00 a.m. in the morning. She was extremely fair and beautiful. Her hairs were black, wavy, and loose. Her eyes were splendid. Her forehead was radiant. There was no crown (as if the loose hair and no crown were symbols of anger). She was empty handed — without lotus, lute, garland, or book.

She disappeared after giving a darśana, but I recovered very quickly after that.

Dream 13: Śańkara with His disciples

I got a copy of Kaṭopaniṣat from Gitapress while I was in Chennai. The cover face illustrates Śańkara sitting with His disciples. The same night I saw Śańkara sitting on a seat with five disciples around Him in a manner identical to the cover-illustration. This dream could be related to what happened during the day before — but it was bliss nevertheless.

Dream 12: They appeared one by one

This dream was pretty long, in which I was lost along various roads and streets. The most interesting part is narrated below. Against a moonlit sky, I saw the form of Viṣṇu to begin with. He stood there in the caturbhuja (four-arm) form and then slowly faded away. He was replaced by another deity, which I don't remember now, in a manner similar to a slide-show. This deity was replaced by Goddess Kālī; Goddess Kālī was replaced by Lakṣmī; Lakṣmī was replaced by Hanumān; and finally Hanumān was replaced by Rāma and Sītā together. That was the end of the divine-show.

Dream 7a: Baby Kṛṣṇa

Like I said my memory is failing. A dream was missed in the previous list. About eight-months ago, I saw the cosmos and heavenly objects of all colors moving around in a celestial kaleidoscope. Amidst that, I saw Baby Kṛṣṇa with his mouth open and showing the cosmos inside His mouth to Mother Yaśodā. My viewpoint was behind the Mother so I don't remember any sight of Her. Kṛṣṇa was standing still all this while. The dream finished at that point.

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Dream 11: Śiva Śambho

I used to walk on a certain curvy path each day while returning from my college (school). The path had a certain curvature which appeared in my dream. I was walking on a similar curved path except that the surroundings were different. It was evening (or morning) time with orange light filling the skies. I saw a temple while walking along the path. The temple was on a lower plane compared to the path. A white bull (or white cow) was standing outside the temple building. And Śiva was washing the cow with water. I had a glance at them and the dream finished.

Dream 10: The Most Handsome Kṛṣṇa

Every soldier of Dwarika was dressing for a parade. And standing in front of my eyes was Śyāmasundara Kṛṣṇa. Beautiful blue face, somewhat round, with two big and deep eyes. No decoration on the face, not even a ṭīkā, but still His face had a remarkable beauty. Curly tresses reached till His neck and wrapped He was in a yellow silken robe. Luckily, I did remember the dialogue this time.

I asked, ‘‘Should I decorate You (for everyone else was getting ready)?’’

With a gentle smile He replied, ‘‘No.’’

The beauty of Nandakumāra needs no decoration.

Dream 9: Śakti — The Temple Dance

I was standing in a vast open field in clear moonlight. My sister, father, and mother were standing opposite me. I looked at the right side, and a grey-color temple was there. The presence of family-folks was set-aside and the eyes got glued to what was happening inside the temple. A huge hurricane-like fireball was spinning and dancing inside the temple. The fireball was thickest in the middle and tapered towards the ends (somewhat like an eye-shape). Just a moment later, the fireball escaped the doors of the temple and flew in air. As the fireball approached me, my hands attained the posture of a ‘‘bhikṣāmudrā.’’ The fireball changed into a beautiful idol of the Goddess and sat exactly in my two-palms set in the begging-posture. My dream finished there, imparting bliss.

Dream 8: Rāma, the Protector

I got my new silent keyboard today. And I think the best way to do an initiation of it would be to write a blog here.

This dream is slightly old. I saw that I am in a beautiful moonlit temple compound. The temple had buildings facing east and west and the north and south side had open gates. On the building side, I was standing, with Rāma standing in front of me as a protector. He had an arrow placed on a bow — ready to be shot at any intruder. He had a beautiful blue cloud like body with a tress-matt as during the forest exile. He had plain clothes, like that of a forest seer. We both saw a chariot, with beautiful horses, but the chariot was empty. Perhaps it was a Māyā trap to hide something from His eyes. Then we saw Rāvaṇa, trying to chop off the head of Daśaratha in the skies. But that didn't shake the patience of Rāma. He kept protecting me, till I woke up.

Dream 7: Vishnu, Shiv, and Adi Shankara

There is a small story behind this dream. Adi Shankara is very renowned as the re-invigorator of the Advaita philosophy. One day I found the beautiful work of His, named vivekachudamani, and started working on its translation.

The same evening, I met another person who claimed that atheism and Nietszche philosophy are far more superior to the denial which Upanishat creates. She also claimed that she has gone through vivekachudamani and other texts without much satisfaction. I stopped talking on that issue due to ideological differences, but thought more about the criticism she made.

For a moment my faith was trembling. Then came the night and the inevitable sleep. I saw Adi Shankara in my dream. He chanted a few verses and then Lord Vishnu and Shiva appeared together in front of me. I forgot the chant by the morning, however.